Grief & Hope


The Lord is my shepherd, 
I shall not want; 
He makes me lie down in green pastures. 
He leads me beside still waters; 
He restores my soul. 
He leads me in paths of righteousness 
for His name’s sake. 

Even though I walk through the valley 
of the shadow of death, 
I fear no evil; 
for You are with me; 
Your rod and Your staff, they comfort me. 

Surely goodness and mercy shall follow me 
all the days of my life; 
and I shall dwell in the house of the 
Lord forever.
Psalm 23
Sometimes it is hard to write about life when it is so intense and personal, not to mention confusing.  Today we found out that what we had hoped was just a difficult pregnancy was, in fact, a miscarriage.  I have come to despise that word, it implies some kind of carelessness, thoughtlessness or lack of preparedness, it brings to mind other uses like “miscarriage of justice”; and I think to myself, “NO! That is not it at all!”  We have lost our baby and while they were with us they were deeply loved and wanted, there is no word that adequately covers the sense of loss, of emptiness and sadness in my heart.  

This is a season which I will long search for purpose in, and may never find it, however one thing I know; that our babe has been spared the suffering of life on this earth, and while I may never hold her (for some reason, in my head, she has a female voice), she has been taken into the greatest joy of life in the presence of God, eternal, wise and loving God.  I am sad, but not without hope, weeping but assured by His presence that Joy will come in the morning.

Thank you for all your prayers and loving support, I never knew how truly loved we were until this week, you have all blessed us beyond words.

Yours in hope

16 thoughts on “Grief & Hope

  1. So sorry to hear this, Ally.I have been hoping for you, and Im sorry.My wife and I went thru this between our first and second, and I know what you must be feeling.Hang in there.Jay

  2. you just put a terribly sad situation into the most beautiful words of light. prayers going heavenward. i am so sorry for your loss.

  3. I’m sad to hear your news. I’m sure I can’t even begin to know all that you’re feeling right now, but I’m praying for you all the same!Gretchen

  4. Prayers and love for you and your family, Ally. I lost two babies between boy #2 and baby girl. It is a season I will never forget, but God was good through out. He will give you what you need and more! Love you!Liz

  5. I am so sad for you. I had a miscarriage before I had my two that I have now. The pain doesn’t go away but the peace from Him is evident. Let me know if you need anything!

  6. Ally, my heart grieves with yours over your loss. Each loss is so unique…just as each child and I will never truly know your pain, but I do know that there is hope in Christ that there was purpose in this trial and that He will be glorified in some way through all of this. I love you and am here if you need anything! Carrie

  7. just read this and am grieving with you, my love. my only prayer is that you would know that god loves you. let’s talk, again soon, friend.

  8. Ally- We are so sorry to hear about your loss. I’ve been there, but don’t know exactly how you’re feeling since we all deal with things differently. Please let me know if there is anything that we can do for you!In Christ’s Love-Michele

  9. Hi Ally, sometimes I am so slow. I haven’t paid much attention to the little box with my followers. Today it seemed to beckon me and I clicked on your image first. I smile at how God works. We lost our first child a little over 24 years ago…praying you know His comfort.

  10. I lost your info and could not figure out how to find you. I am SO sorry for your loss and just don’t even know what to say.I hope once you are feeling better we can get together. I’d love to see you and I’ll keep you in my thoughts and prayers.

Leave a Reply

Fill in your details below or click an icon to log in: Logo

You are commenting using your account. Log Out /  Change )

Facebook photo

You are commenting using your Facebook account. Log Out /  Change )

Connecting to %s